Word

These are my words below...

My Victory

In a world known to none

Dreamcatcher one

We've only just begun

Passion is there

but no one wants to claim her

Seeker of knowledge

Novice to the game

You have met your match

Not in awe by suave's name

To come to me

You have to come for real

No neighborhood pretensions

I know the real deal

Vampires, Pagans,

Vulcans, Lesbians

All make up your world

But I am the champion

Winner of intrigue

All the knowledge that you seek

First you must go inside

Face the feelings that you hide

Behind the slogan NO FEAR

But you live in it my dear

Emotions, defeat

Be all you can be

I'm not a Fool!!

You must really think I'm a fool
Doing what you do
Thinking that you have redirected my mind
From thinking you are out seeking another kind

I'm not a fool
I see right through you
My intuition guides and protects me
From the likes of you

I'm not a fool

I know you have others on lay-away
Because that's how you play
I know that our time is limited
Until you are done with me
Because you don't know how to be

So because I'm not a fool
I must let you go, set you free
Before you destroy all the Good in me.

(c) 2004 Phase-M-Out Entertainment

No Peace

I will no longer give honor to you
My mind belongs to me
Stop lurking in the
Shadows of my memory?

My precious gifts belong to me
And I will give them only to the deserving.
Never missing its target
Images of you occupy my mind

Like darts hitting a dart board
Seizing the time

Bulls-eye, there’s another
Stop lurking
in the shadows of my memory
My precious gifts belong to me

You found the key to unlock the door
To my insanity?
Now I must change the locks!

(c) 2006 Phase-M-Out Entertainment

What is the Probability?

I reached out and you reached back
Five months later we're still intact
A spiritual union that is so divine
A Meeting of the spirit, heart, body, and mind

You were sent to me
And I to you
The timing was not ours;
With it we had nothing to do

There were many who have come
And who have gone along the way
To clear the path for our union
T'is why they did not stay

Strange coincidences
Traveling separately before
Leaving markings on a path
That now seem familiar and sure

Our best course
Is to go with the flow
This path has no ending
Many directions it will go

(This is a work still in progress)

(c) 2006 Phase-M-Out Entertainment

Sometimes I Wonder

I often wonder why it's so easy for some to lose themselves in another.
To define themselves by the standards of another.
To give up who they are just to be with another.
To never stop to think, if it's this hard, maybe it's not meant to be.
To never stop to think, this person doesn't love me for me.
To never stop to think, if I continue on like this, is it really my life that I'm living?
To never stop to think, am I caught up in a whirlwind and have stopped breathing?
To never stop to think, after I win the challenge, then what?
To never stop to think, How much of me am I loving?
To never stop to think, How much of me am I losing?
To never stop to think, How much of me am I disrespecting?
To never stop to think, How much of me am I willing to destroy?
Just for the sake of being with?

I'd rather be with myself
I'd rather love myself
I'd rather learn myself
I'd rather respect myself
I'd rather cherish myself
I'd rather appreciate myself
and find someone who appreciates me too and all that I have become.
It's not supposed to be so hard, so I must set you free.

(c) 2005 Phase-M-Out Entertainment

Waiting

The love I lost
had really been gone
since the beginning

Waiting

I knew it from the onset
but was hoping to forget

Waiting

No one had plans to relocate
No matter what
It's love that made me wait
Or so I thought

Waiting

There's a chance for minds to change
Is that why we are still here?

Waiting

But for how long
It's been 4 years now

Waiting

Do we continue to
Carry on like two virtual
Lovebirds passing in the night?

Waiting

For you to say it first
For me to say it last

Waiting

For the time to come
For the moment we realize

It's over.

© 2003 Phase-M-Out Entertainment

Change Your Ways (lyrics to a song)

I tried my best to make you happy

I gave you all I had to give

The games you played were meant to hurt me

And now my love it's time to say good bye

My life is too important to me

Happiness is all that I seek

You and I cannot continue to be

Unless you change your ways

I can't go on with the way you make me feel

I'm always there for you and you're never there for me

All I wanted from you were the simple things in life

Like hold my hand, stroke my head, sing me lullabyes

My life is too important to me

Happiness is all that I seek

You and I cannot continue to be

Unless you change your ways.

LOVE YOURSELF FIRST (Inspired by life experiences shared by women I know)

You wanna hit me?
Okay, only if you love me
(and bring me flowers)

You wanna see someone else?
Okay, just as long as you make sweet love to me
(I gotta get mine)

You wanna call me out my name?
Okay, I'll just spend years reprogramming later
(just don't stop calling me)

You want it when you want it?
Okay, take it, but don't expect any kisses
(I gotta get up for work in the morning)

You wanna run up your credit cards?
Okay, I'll just get a second job
(my man needs me)

You wanna touch our daughter twice a week?
Okay, but don't you dare give her more attention than me
(that tramp thinks she's gonna take my man)

(Wait a minute!!! Revelation!!!!!)

What is this? Permission to disrespect me.
What is this? A warrant for my spirit's arrest.
What is this? A license to kill my hopes and dreams.
What is this? The Creator putting me to the test.

When will I? Begin to love myself first
When will I? See the truth right before my eyes
When will I? Realize things will only get worse
When will I? Take responsibility for my life

Why did I? Believe that you loved me
Why did I? Ignore all the signs
Why did I? Protect your identity
Why did I? Wear YOUR disguise

Where were you? At 3AM When I called out your name
Where were you? When breakfast, lunch and dinner came
Where were you? When I reached for you last night
Where were you? That's where you'll be sleeping tonight

Why won't I? Continue to rationalize your behavior
Why won't I? Stop talking about that counseling stuff
Why won't I? Continue to be your savior
Why won't I? Because I've had enough

You wanna hit me?
Okay, only if you wanna go to prison

You wanna see someone else?
Okay, just leave the keys to MY car on the table

Oh, there's just one thing I have to let you know
Remember the counseling sessions where you refused to go?
Well the counselor turned out to be one fine brother
And tomorrow he's taking me to meet his mother.

Untitled

The life that you live
Will come back to haunt you

The pain that you give
Will come back to hurt you

The lies that you told
Will come back to scold you

As memories unfold
You'll be all alone.

A NEED TO CRY

For a moment there I felt I'd lost you
Thought your tears would make you fly
Away into the arms of solitude
A place to hide a place to cry

The thought of you alone in sorrow
I would not be able to face tomorrow

So I cradled you in the sound of my voice
couldn't leave you alone, I had no choice

You have become so precious to me
I have to secure and comfort my baby
Sleep would not come to me tonight
without reassurance that you were all right

Cry if you have to, cry if you want to
I'll be right here with a shoulder for you
Whatever it is we'll make it through
No one else, just me and you.